Holy Ghost blog.

Well...a few months just blew by like a whirlwind and I was starting to think that my blog might go crawl into a corner and die a sad, lonely death since I've been neglecting it so much. 

But...here I am performing last chance CPR to try a save my newbie blogger behind. 

Here is how I have survived the last months...

Yep, there are two shots of espresso in that cup. YUMMY!!

As my first topic back I've really been wanting to write about the glorification of busy. Busy is a four letter word in my life-a word that I both hate to say and love oh-so-much at the same time. I am that type A, OCD, pinterest addicted girl trying to fill every second of every single day with a perfect project that proves how much I am worth to the world.

But really, in the end, who cares? 

Are my students really paying attention to whether or not every lesson ends with an exit slip? Is anyone really checking up on my goal progress at work? Will my mother and sisters in law run their fingers down the baseboards in my house to check for dust when they visit? Will any of my friends and family know if I didn't plan out their gifts before purchasing them? Will Jaxon care if I give him one cup of Mac and cheese instead of one cup of homegrown, hand canned green beans? Will the world stop revolving if I take Thursday off of work to be with my family?

In case you didn't hear the rhetorical tone in my voice, my answers are no. I just feel like we have come to a point in our society where the busy woman is a goddess. She carries a million bags, keeps a constantly growing to do list, has a color coded calendar on her iPhone to not miss one of the ten appointments she has that day. This woman lives on caffeine because she is non stop running, possibly frazzled, and trying to exceed everyone's expectations. 

I wanted to be that woman. Until I got to the point where my thoughts are frantic and scattered, I am unable to multitask successfully because i can't focus enough to actually accomplish one thing, I am tired, irritable, frustrated and wound way too tight. 

So, I am currently working on cutting back, getting back to priorities. And I strongly recommend anyone who is feeling worn too thin to do the same. Take a moment to write down what is most important to you right now and say NO to everything else. If you're like me, saying no feels terrible and is very hard, but it's necessary to get the right balance in life. 

Running myself ragged trying to accomplish 5,000 things in a day is not the point. Sitting on the floor and reading a book to my son is the point. Getting up early to double check my to do list is not the way to live every day. Spending ten extra minutes cuddling with my husband in the morning is the way to live every day. Trying to GSD from sun up to sun down is not what I want anymore. Taking a half hour to read or listen to music on the couch is what I want. Being a jack of all trades and a master of none is not who I want to be. A happy, balanced, focused woman is who I want to be. 

Here's me drinking more water and less caffeine. 

So, here is my goal for the rest of 2014 and the rest of my life: start saying no to limit the amount of things I try to accomplish. Stop glorifying busy and start glorifying the true priorities in my heart.

It's time to find the balance in this little life.